17.5.05

"Ton Of Bricks For A Wally Fenderson?"

So, I guess it just may be the reality of the situation at hand, but I seem to have more moments of "Holy shit this is really happening. What the hell am I going to do?" I'm still, for the most part, happy. But every now and then something will hit me in just the wrong way. A song, phrase, thought. A whole list of things, really. It does make me realize that I'm not going to get over this quickly. And I need to accept that that's just fine. I can't force myself to be normal in eight weeks. It just ain't gonna happen. And if I do try to force it, I'll be even more screwed up an the other side. And that just won't be good for anyone.

But I will be getting a roommate at the end of the week, I hope. He's agreed to move in, its just a matter of when. That will take care of the whole "empty-rooms" problem I've been having. Along with the "I-Only-Have-One-Set-Of-Silverware-That-I-Borrowed-From-Downstairs" problem.

So, in conclusion, denial is not the way to go, I have been through a complete uprooting, and that's gonna fuck me up for a while. But at least I don't need to buy a new vacuum.

12 Comments:

Blogger Baron said...

Who vacuums anyways?!?

See, aren't you happy to know that I read your blog posts?

1:00 PM  
Blogger DeHuman8 said...

eh, force yourself to be normal, i like fucked up friends.....oh wait, you already are......guess that's why i like you

5:00 PM  
Blogger Lady_Tease said...

I vacuum but that's because I'm a clean freak :)

9:12 PM  
Blogger DeHuman8 said...

where's your writing bitch?

6:51 PM  
Blogger ~Jedi~ said...

totally unrelated to your post, but....can i just tell you that i've been searching high and low for a fellow blogger who mentions soul coughing and/or doughty??...congratulations!!!...you're my first...and my new hero...

7:26 PM  
Blogger Wally Fenderson said...

D8-
writing is in draft form. I'll be finishing and posting today. Two day post!!

Jedi-
I Try. THanks for reading!

8:20 AM  
Blogger DeHuman8 said...

STILL NOT HERE!!!

soul coughing is kinda great, m.d. isn't bad either.

3:20 PM  
Blogger Anarchy Zen said...

House Cleaning is the rememedy for mental illnesses of all sorts. I recommend doing the dishes as well.

3:32 PM  
Blogger Wally Fenderson said...

AZ--

I HAVE NO DISHES TO DO!!!

3:51 PM  
Blogger Wally Fenderson said...

Oh, and I didn't get a chance to finish the pot, seeing as I had to deal with my bank during my lunch hour.

3:52 PM  
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4:50 PM  
Blogger DeHuman8 said...

still no post!!!

5:54 PM  

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